Weightloss: A Journey of Self-love 2

Weight-loss is one of those things I have not always been able to do for myself and I reiterate for myself because all my life I have been the bigger girl in my family. I talk about this because this past year was not the best mentally for me. I sought out therapy as my mental health was deteriorating. So many factors from years of trauma and an on and off relationship with myself and my self-worth tumbled down upon me and then add the pandemic to it as well. Get the picture?

I sought out therapy and first I tried a text message one and that didn't end up being what worked for me. I then connected with my PCP’s office and was able to get a counselor from there and anti-anxiety medication. This counselor was amazing! I felt lucky that I was able to find someone that understood my culture and someone that didn’t gaslight me because they didn’t understand me and how I was brought up in life. Getting counseling was the best thing that I could ever do for myself. It really helped me in order to get rid of anxiety of the pandemic and manage the stress that I was receiving from others and my job.

Alongside therapy, I started exercising. Exercise gives me the outlet to scream, yell, and force myself to care for myself. I started working out twice a day, adding up to an hour a day without any breaks during the week. Exercise was one of those outlets that allowed me to be me. It allowed me to feel good. It allowed me to see my self-worth. It allowed me to LOVE myself. That to me was so important because I didn’t know how to love myself!

This picture embodies a day that I loved the way I looked. Just seriously look at me... I am flawless ;)